Elsie Kassis, Blogger at www.diaryofafashionmuse.blogspot.com
Tell us about your wordsmith career path so far: I have been writing for as long as I can remember. As a child I kept journals which I kept going right through my early high school years. After that, when it came apparent that a career within the fashion industry was my ideal path, those journals simply evolved into scrapbooks. During my years of studying fashion design and then production, along with sketching and sewing for classes, I continued to write in my spare time at home. Those scrapbooks became my world. I filled them with various forms of inspiration from magazine cut outs, to quotes, to drawings, to article and story ideas and so forth. After years of studying and working within the fashion industry, I finally decided that writing about fashion was my real love and Diary Of A Fashion Muse was born.
You’ve gone from being a fashion student to establishing a widely-read fashion blog that has now been nominated for ‘Best Fashion Blog’ at the Australian Fashion Awards. Does it feel like you’re heading in an entire different direction in terms of career? Absolutely. I started Diary Of A Fashion Muse due to my complete and utter obsession with all things fashion and my love of writing in general. It was an opportunity to see the ideas and thoughts in my head come to life. Almost like an online ’scrapbook’ if you may. I started out wanting to be a fashion designer and along the way, it evolved into becoming a fashion commentator of sorts and I couldn’t be happier. Being nominated by my Industry peers for Best Fashion Blog when Diary Of A Fashion Muse is still less than a year old has certainly made me one happy little blogger!
What appeals to you about blogging, and how often do you post and why? Diary Of A Fashion Muse is a Fashion Industry Blog which covers all the latest collections from around the Globe, designer information, store openings, celebrity and model style, current trends and how to wear them, Industry news, the latest Advertising Campaigns, what is hot right this minute plus personal anecdotes of the trials and tribulations of fashion and shopping from myself, my friends and my readers. Diary Of A Fashion Muse is for the Fashion Obsessed as well as the Fashion L-Plater.
I like to constantly inform my readers of the happenings within this Industry whilst giving them some personal information about my life as well and I love how I am able to do this instantly. I love the immediacy of blogging. How as soon as I get an idea about anything at all I can communicate it with the world in an instant and I think (and hope) that is what my readers like about it too, that they are constantly informed and ‘clued’ in. Due to this I happily post several times a day.
What is a typical day in the life of A Fashion Muse? It truly varies. Some days I will have meetings or interviews to attend, other days I am holed up at home typing away on the blog or for various other websites. If I have a full day at home I get up, shower and dress (as if I am physically leaving for work) and walk the 5 or so metres to where my PC is situated (a long and tedious commute clearly) where I will check and reply to my emails. I then reply to any messages I have received both on facebook and twitter and then go on to reply and approve any comments that have been left on my blog. If I have any assignments I need to complete or get started on I concentrate on those first and once they have been completed, I begin researching my next blog post. If I do have a meeting scheduled, I then obviously would take more care in regards to my outfit selection, do my hair and make up and grab my very cute LV Agenda and head out the door, stopping along the way to grab various newspapers and magazines to devour and to check my post box. I take breaks throughout the day to clear my head and regroup where I take my dog Harley for a walk, meet friends for lunch and go window shopping (it’s research, honestly).
Are you writing freelance for any other fashion publications, or do you prefer to concentrate solely on your blog for the mean time? I do contribute to other websites so when I am not blogging on Diary Of A Fashion Muse, I am pitching ideas or working on articles for them as well as pitching ideas for other publications (ahh, such is the life of the freelancer!)
Most bloggers find that, at least ininitially, it’s very hard to get writing read by a large audience. What do you think has helped AFM succeed? Shameless promotion usually helps! Seriously though, I find that by posting relevant links on networking sites such as Twitter or Facebook helps spread the word however I have also realised that word of mouth seems to be working in my favour with Diary Of A Fashion Muse. The power of the Internet is truly amazing as I constantly receive emails from various readers informing me that they stumbled across the blog by accident. It has really has just grown on it’s own.
How did the idea for your blog come about? I had been wanting to start a blog for such a long time for me to really just share my love for all things fashion with other like minded people. It was Christmas Day 2008, I was at home aimlessly surfing the Net and just thought ‘Why not?’ and so I did. It really was the perfect step for someone like me who loves fashion and loves to write so by fusing these two areas together, I found that having my own blog was the perfect platform to successfully communicate both my interests to a wider audience.
What were some of the difficulties you first encountered when trying to establish an audience, build up the site, find your niche etc? I knew from the beginning that Diary Of A Fashion Muse would be for anybody interested in the fashion world, whether or not they were already in the industry, trying to break in or just had pure love for it. I also knew that the blog needed to be filled not just with industry news and information but it also had to have a personal slant to it as I found that when I shared any personal experiences, my readers tended to respond positively as they could identify with my anecdotes themselves. I have been extremely lucky in the sense that I never really encountered any difficulties when I established Diary Of A Fashion Muse as due to the various contacts I had within the industry, getting the blog out there was never a major issue for me.
Did you consult any mentors or guides to make the process a little easier? Not particularly. From the moment I decided on setting up Diary Of A Fashion Muse, I knew exactly what I wanted to do with it so I just kind of went with what was in my head I guess!
Niche fashion and beauty blogs have really taken off in the past couple of years. Why do you think this is so and does that make you continue to strive hard to ensure AFM always has a point of difference? I think it is due to the aforementioned immediacy of it. With the popularity of the Internet, people are able to visit any website to get the information they crave constantly and in an instant and I also think it is because readers can really relate to the bloggers themselves and to what the blog is really all about. I know that before I started, I would read other blogs religiously and think to myself that I could possibly do something along those lines as well. I think Diary Of A Fashion Muse is fairly unique in that it is professional yet not intimidating. It really is just me in a nutshell as I share the things that I love in a way that is fun and enjoyable. I am approachable and have such a love for what I write that I believe (and hope) it comes across on screen.
How do you work with your blog? Are your postings inspired by press releases and industry news, your own sense of style and shopping patterns, or do you rely on the questions asked by your readers to write up your bits and pieces? A mixture of all of the above. My posts cover industry news, the latest collections, information on designers and the new advertising campaigns. There is also quite a strong focus on both model and celebrity style as well as personal photographs of my own style and anecdotes from my own various experiences. Readers will also quite often email me queries on particular subjects that they would like to know about and I happily oblige.
How do you think the layout, pictures and colour scheme of the blog enhance the overall writing experience? People respond well to images which is why I tend to use a whole range of photographs and illustrations throughout. I try to keep the layout fairly simple and straightforward as I prefer to keep the focus on the actual content of my posts.
Do you have a goals list that the Wordsmith Lane readers can have a sneak peak at? I don’t tend to plan too far ahead to be honest however at this stage I really would like Diary Of A Fashion Muse to keep expanding and to continue to reach the fellow fashion obsessed all over the world. Establishing my blog has really opened many doors for me and if anything I would like that to continue!
Give us one good reason why we should follow your blog. As I mentioned before, Diary Of A Fashion Muse is really for everybody, from the fashion obsessed to the fashion newbie. Come here to learn about the industry and to get to know what I am all about.
What advice would you offer to aspiring bloggers, freelancers and wordsmiths who want to follow a similar career path? My advice for bloggers is fairly simple: know what industry you want to write about, find your target market and just write. If it is truly a passion for you, it will come fairly easily. For freelancers, you will need to pinpoint exactly which area of the media you aspire to be involved with. You need to know that particular publication inside and out when pitching your ideas to them. For everybody who wants to write one way or another, you will need to become a vicarious reader if you are not already. Read everything from newspapers to magazines to press releases to newsletters. You need to be like a sponge and soak up all sorts of information from all areas of life in order to be a successful writer.
Ten in the Hot Seat:
1. Describe yourself in one word: Curious
2. Biggest accomplishment to date: Being nominated in the 2009 2threads Australian Fashion Awards for Best Fashion Blog
3. You wish you wrote: The Alchemist. Such a simple, beautiful tale that has changed the lives of so many across the Globe.
4. Can’t leave home without: My purse, which is simply an extension of my body (albeit a stylish one).
5. One thing you are currently writing: A piece about ‘Store Stalking’ – when you constantly visit the same store to lovingly stare at or repeatedly try on a particular item that for what ever reason you just can not bring yourself to purchase. This is what I call ‘Store Stalking’ and we are all guilty of it!
6. First thing you wrote: An Illustrated children’s novel I was working on at home and which I gave to my 8th grade English teacher to mark!
7. Addicted to reading: everything and anything. My tastes are endless.
8. Top spot on your goals list: To expand Diary Of A Fashion Muse into an ‘interactive’ website.
9. If you were a character in a novel, you’d be: Jo March in Little Women.
10. The best thing about being a wordsmith: Being able to communicate in various mediums when you have a love for the written word is priceless.
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When I went into hospital almost a month ago, my then boyfriend did not leave my side. He had planned to propose on the day I went in, and I now know that he had sat in there for one and a half days with the ring in a box in his pocket. I was being pumped with a drip at the time, and everytime it would go into my veins I’d sook like a baby and bemoan my predicament. Other times, I would sulk about being there, about all the things I had to do, about how crappy the food tasted and how I just wanted to come home and have a shower.
When I came out of hospital three weeks ago, he went home, bought loads of pumpkin, sweet potato and the like, and froze me batches of immunity-boosting soup to get me going strong again. Through out most of the times in this relationship, I was the centre of attention. The spotlight was always on me and what I wanted or needed. He always came second to me and my needs – even though it was he who worked 15 hours in a row on some days, and put his life on the line everytime he got into his uniform.
It’s taken me the time I got out of hospital to realise he had no food while I was there, and that he was probably bored, and he didn’t get to go home and shower when he felt like it, and that he was practically my slave. And then on top of that, he went ahead and slaved in the kitchen to help me get the nutrients I needed in a manner befitting my tastebuds and lifestyle.
When I walk down the aisle in exactly 383 days time, I know I will be the luckiest girl in the world. He supported me when I was being unglamorously wheeled down hospital corridors, when I walked back into academia, when I decided I wanted to waltz down the difficult wordsmith path. And because of the likes of him, I am inspired to be a better person everyday — firstly by taking out the time to myself with a good book and some made-with-love soup in order to strengthen myself physically, mentally and emotionally; and also by learning to go that extra mile in a manner so humble it’d take the person receving your good works three weeks to realise what you have done.
And personally, I don’t think there’s any better remedy for whatever ailment you’ve got. Being a great person goes a heck of a long way — for better or worse, and in sickness and health. Do that all the days of your life, and you shall know peace, calm and serenity.
Hmmm. I am not a watch collector by any means. And this is, by many accounts, a limited number of watches, and certainly not on the designer side at that. But the fact that my friends laugh at me for constantly being on time (to everything and anything) has finally just resonated with me…and maybe it’s because I always have a pretty watch on my hand to stare at, thus ensuring I’m never behind on anything. And with the likes of these watches, that’s style included.
From Left to right:
- White One Teaspoon Watch: Tip-on with the December 09 issue of Cleo. Catch it while you can and you too can look fashion-forward for eight bucks.
- Gold Guess Watch: Searched Europe far and wide for a gold man-style watch. All I could find were pretty dainty ones. Although I expected to pay very little (in comparison to Aussie prices that is) for a Gucci or D&G number, I walked away with this Guess one. I paid more for it in Europe than I would have here, but to date, I am yet to see the same one in gold (although I have spotted it in silver here and there).
- Guess Patent Navy watch: A preppy little baby I bought in year 11. It was my first graduation to a designer watch…and I am still very in love with it, even if it is worn and torn.
- Guess light blue watch, with sparkly diamante face: A bargain buy that is still my fave to this day.
- Jag two-tone watch: A simple piece for the plain jane in me. I love that I can wear it with both gold and silver jewellery. I wear this when I need to feel toned down, elegant and classic. If I could ever afford a Cartier, I’d wear their simple classic silver square watch everday.
- Pink Fluro Watch: The time piece that is identical to the $345 Toywatch watch, but with a $20 price tag. As seen in Monday’s post, and my fave of the summer season.
PS: And for those checking out my necklace, let me just say that this is 18 carat gold, circa 1993 – yep, I was ahead of Miss Carrie Bradshaw at the ripe young age of seven. My nanna sent it to me from Lebanon, and I have loved it ever since.
For the past two nights in a row I have complained to friends that I was bored with life. Whenever this happens, I sift through my Europe photos and dream about going back there with my boy. At this rate, it won’t be for a long time, but a girl can dream. I realise this is a selfish post, but hey, we all gotta treat ourselves once a while…
That is the question. As you all know, my recent hospitalisation has put quite a few things into perspective for me — the main thing of course being that I need to learn not to push myself too much, and to take a break every once a while. I am trying to stop juggling, and for some reason, the blog and my uni thesis are currently battling the ’should they stay or should they go’ status in my life.
I’m actually quite in love with the idea of having a blog, especially one as cool as wordsmith lane (I am obsessed with the name). But I have come to realise that I’ve been treating it more like a job instead of a hobby, and I really don’t want to have to worry about another job when I already have three regular ones next to my name: freelance writer/faith education officer/USYD researcher. I come home buggered at the end of the day, and I don’t really want to deal with more writers stuff (because it reminds me of work) when my body and mind are craving relaxation.
At the same time, I still think wordsmith lane is a pretty good idea. There certainly was not anything like it when I first came out of uni, and despite the fact that I have been writing professionally for over three years, I still learn and benefit from the interviews I have here every Friday. I don’t want to lose its name just as much as I dont want to ‘abandon’ (because that’s what it feels like) those 100-odd readers that check in everyday because they are A) interested in my life or B) in my writing.
So I have decided to share my dilemmas with you, my audience, because only you can tell me whether or not you actually value this blog, and whether you want to still have it around. To make it easier for you, I have listed some options below, but I will also welcome any suggestions for improving my current situation. I would also like to remind you all that I am no sook (is that a real word?) or baby, but there are times when you have to learn to take a step back and take it easy, because your health is most important. So without further ado, here are my options to remedy my current situation:
- Revamp the blog: Not making it all about writing might make it easier for me to post reguarly, because I wont have to worry as much about content (I can write about my life, works in progress, thoughts, recent purchases etc, while still interviewing writers on Fridays, mentioning the releases of books, discussing any writing-industry news as it comes, and dishing out advice/skill central posts when I actually have ideas for them/when someone requests it). Then again, do you actually care about what I bought/think/am doing? This would also go hand in hand with not blogging everyday, because that adds a little too much pressure to my days. Ofcourse, I’d still try and keep the Friday interviews and Monday’s Wordsmith Weekly as regular as possible, and perhaps I would install an RSS option so new posts pop up in your email inbox as opposed to having you actually visit the site everyday.
- Ditch the blog: That’s right. Ditch it altogether because it’s not interesting/not enough people read it/I don’t blog enough to hold onto a regular audience/it’s just another thing that I have to worry about (I am good worrier).
- Recruit people to contribute to the blog when I am flailing. I tend to flail (not fail, lol) a lot. And hopefully 2010 will be better than 2009 was, but with a wedding on the horizon to add to my mix, and the financial worries that come with it, who knows how I will fare.
- Blog about my wedding when all else fails. That’s got to make for some content from me, and some reading for you, right?
- Merge my professional website (www.sarahayoub.com) with Wordsmith Lane to avoid losing the name if I select Option Number 2. At least then I will only have one website, but then again if people google Sarah Ayoub, will wordsmith lane come up? And is that stupid? I mean, what if I become an author someday, and my novel bio says visit sarah at wordsmith lane. People would think I was an idiot, or would they? At least if I decide to change my name after I am married (a debate I will blog about later) I wont have to change my website or email…
So what do you guys think? Any advice? And what do you think of the new layout? I chose it because it makes the writing look bigger…or maybe that was a figment of my imagination (I have a lot of those too)… Love to hear from you all — and hope all your writing is going well xx
Hey there Wordsmith Laners, and welcome to another week of writing pain and gain here at Wordsmith Lane. Today I am indulging in a day off considering the forecasted Sydney weather (which didn’t turn out as hot as it was meant to be), and even though I am supposed to be doing uni work, I figure I’d get my wordsmith weekly pen going, especially considering I have been a very negligent blogger of late (more on that tomorrow — eek!). So without further ado, let’s check out what’s worth noting this week…
1. Sydney is in the midst of a supposed heatwave, which means sun, surf and sydney-summer style. I am personally not complaining, as I always look like a dag in winter and summer gives me the opportunity to rustle my fashion feathers a little bit. Today, I am wearing a floral playsuit that I bought online from topshop, silver witchery sandals that I am all-round obssessed with, and a fashion-forward fluro pink watch. The watch is my point of pride today, considering I paid a mere $20 for it, and then saw an identical one by ToyWatch in Shop Til You Drop for $345 or so. Bloody Brilliant.
2. Christmas Gift Guides have hit the glossies, and no one is more excited than I. My fave gift guides so far have been in Shop Til You Drop, madison and InStyle, and right now, I have my eye on a number of homewares more than anything else. Admittedly, half the time that I actually dog-ear pages in the gift guides of the glossies, it’s because I am lusting after something that I want, which is slightly off-putting considering I am supposed to be browsing for others. Though truth be told, I only ever gift a few people – my three siblings, my fiance, my aunt, and my God-Daughter. I used to try and gift mum and dad, but mum always returns the present and gives me a giftvoucher for the money. Apparently, I am at an age where I should be indulging my fancies instead of hers (though considering she was raised in virtual poverty for much of her life, she has never been much of a person indulged, and I’d rather be gifted with her selflessness — far more fitted to the season, me thinks).
3. Underdog writers such as ourselves might found solace in Sam Savage’s latest book, The Cry of the Sloth. Chronicling the writer’s life through the character Andrew Whittaker, who
edits a small literary magazine, The Cry of the Sloth makes us little writers feel a teeny bit better for surviving on cheap wine, baked beans and maggi noodles (his staples are fried spam and vodka). Plus, it deals with the crushing moments that befall us all, writing or not writing, when we least expect them — un-cared for tenants, ex-wives wanting money, and the constant pursuit of hangers-on we don’t exactly have time for. A good read for when we’re feeling like we’re slightly flailing, especially when we’re wondering if Andrew Whittaker’s set-up of a literary festival can save him…or plunge him further into a frustrated writers’ abyss.
3. I need a fairy godmother to help transform the pumpkin dresses I have been seeing of late into something a little more glamorous and right up my fashion-alley. You see, my parents have decided to throw a little dinner to celebrate my engagement. Although I am of the belief that engagements are personal and are supposed to be intimate, I am the first child in the family to be married and they’re a tad bit keen to share as much of the journey as possible. Unfortunately, this gives me more grief than pleasure at this stage – A), I can’t find a cocktail dress worth wearing that costs less than $400 (I have a wedding to save for!); B), I am a little concerned with the way that my loud, large Lebanese family will fare with James’ small, reserved Anglo one, and C) the guest list is already causing tension that I just do not have the time and effort to deal with in my post-hospitalisation state. Either way, this is one soiree that needs the perfect amount of style, smarts and savoir-faire if we are to call it a success.
5. Pretty things make every girl’s blue days seem a little brighter. In the weeks since I have come out of hospital, I have found solace in the smallest things. Today, it’s all about a smiley Reese Witherspoon on a festive InStye cover, and a pretty pink cupcake filled with cream. Coupled with the gorgeous teapot I’ve just bought from T2, it’s gonna make for a very relaxing afternoon.
The Skill Central topics of Wordsmith Lane are all about learning those little bits of info that we need to make it as writers. Conducting interviews, writing pitch letters, working on manuscripts, finding the perfect workspace, yada yada yada.
But sometimes, this information is useless to us unless we’re pretty clear about where exactly it is that we want to go. This is where goals lists come in handy. The beauty about them is that they work in two ways: they make you feel really good about yourself, you know, all optimistic and open to the future, and they actually help you map out how you’re going to get to where you want to be, because they allow you to distinguish between the bits of info you need, and all the other stuff which tends to, in my case, just clog my head with other confusing thoughts about my career (like I was not worried about it enough already) and send me away from my clear-cut path and into a panic.
Today, because I am feeling rather fragile and still quite ill, I have decided to make myself feel better by writing a list of my career dreams and goals, and to share it with the world (or quite simply, those of us regularly waltzing down wordsmith lane) shame-free.
It is going to make me feel really good about myself because I am putting my aspirations out there, which is something that I think is really important because you never know who might be able to offer you advice about it. Plus, I’ve written it in my phone so I can look at it wherever I am to remind me of where I want to go, and perhaps inspire me with new avenues of getting there.
If you think about it, you’d never set out on a long journey without a map. And a goals list is the same for your career journey – because even if you get a little lost along the way, the goals list will always set you back on the path you want to be going. But what’s better is the fact that you yourself drew the map, which means that even if you want to make a stop-over, or decide to stay somewhere you never dreamed of visiting, you can do that – because it’s your journey, and you can decide how you want to take it.
So without further ado, here’s a peek at my list. I would love it if you emailed yours to sarah[at]wordsmithlane.com so that I can publish some of them in a future post (happy to do this anonymously if you wish). I think it would make for great reading for the rest of the wordsmith laners. Enjoy mine, and try not to laugh too hard at it, I have a tendency to dream BIG!
Sarah’s Goals List:
- I want to write in Vogue (Australia). Not because I consider myself this fabulous woman of high fashion (although, yay me, some things in my closet could attest to this), but because I love the quality of writing in its Comment, Upfront & Talks section, is in my opinion, super great. (I might have to hold off on this dream for a while if I am using words like super and great together).
- I want to write an opinion column in the Sydney Morning Herald or The Australian. At least once. I feel it would make me feel more Lois Lane-like if I were published in a newspaper.
- I’d love to publish books. Many books. I have a few ideas and plans for books of various genres. I just need some motivation, a mentor, and a publishing deal. Yes, this is why this a dreams list.
- I want a pretty office space. I can’t wait to move out. I’d have bookshelves line an entire wall. There, I’d put all my writing reference books (my novels and other books would be in the library of my home) and my magazines. Another wall would feature a few of my articles framed, and maybe one day, if I am cool enough, a few of my awards. I want one wall to be made of cork, so I can pin to it all sorts of inspiring words, pictures and pretty, girly things. And then a great big desk with a comfortable chair and a very pretty teapot and tea cup sitting at my side. In the centre of my room, I’d have a little table and two chairs for any interviews. Oh, and my walls would be painted blue, and I’d have an armchair for reading in one corner, and a day bed underneath my framed articles, so that my pet/husband can nap there (I assume this will all happen when I am way older, especially if my financial status is anything to go by).
- A column! I would love to have a regular column in a montly magazine or even in a newspaper. I have no idea what I would write about, but it would be good. And people would love it, and read it religiously.
- Oh, and because I’d be super fabulous, someone would interview me on TV, or I’d be be nominated for some sort of award, and a PR of some uber-cool label would request to dress me in their clients’ clothes. Ooooh.
- I’d speak at festivals. Regularly. Aspiring writers would come to hear me speak and ask me for my advice, and I’d be pleasant and obliging. We might even catch up for coffee sometime, because I love chatting away!
This week, I am back to walking on wordsmith lane. Back to checking out the little stalls of information for aspiring writers, visiting the career paths of those both distinguished and established, and shopping for skills in the central square of my little writer’s street. But to explain my absence?
Firstly, let me say that I was chuffed to receive the odd email and comment enquiring as to my whereabouts, it made my sad and despondent days in bed/in hospital slightly more pleasant knowing that people were waiting to hear more from me and from my writing. I’m truly sorry for having been away for so long, but I did have a reason.
As you all know, I’ve often hammered on about the things on my plate: my writing (and often, lack thereof); the early hours of my media jobs at USYD, saving up for my wedding/mortgage without a regular job, and my thesis. What I have failed to mention was that I have also been suffering from depression this year – something fairly common in Australia (one in three are the stats, apparently) and even more common among young women. In addition to all this, my body has been weakened both physically and mentally as a result of my various stresses and juggling workload (I seem to carry my own problems and the weight of the world on my shoulders), and as a result of a stubborn stomach bug that won’t go away. So it was no wonder then, that a few weeks ago, weakened beyond measure, my body decided to stage a fit and I was taken to the emergency room.
Turns out that my white blood cells (the ones that fight off infection) had almost all disappeared, to the point at which their number was equivalent to someone who had just had chemo. Sitting in the emergency room and shaking like someone having an epileptic fit (I’m told I looked really weird), and spending practically another week in hospital and the rest on bed rest, I realised that I really need to stop juggling, and give myself a break for a while. And in case things were not difficult enough, my grandfather died while I was in there, and I was not allowed to be discharged to go the funeral and farewell a man who not only instilled in me my love of words (he wrote poetry, in Lebanese) but whom I loved and truly idolised. Apparently, closure and the desire to say a proper goodbye are really understated in the medical world.
But this is not the end of my news…before I was taken to hospital, I was offered a job in (religious) education. I’d been looking for something that would allow me to save manically for the wedding and mortgage, but that I would still find personally fulfilling. I didn’t want to experience my soul being sucked out of my body! It was a maternity leave position, so I’d only have it for a year, and I requested one day off per week to write and work on my thesis. I’m really looking forward to it, because it entails making scripture classes accessible to those students wanting to learn religion in public schools. There’s something egalitarian and ‘giving back’ about it, and I hope it all works out well.
Of course this means that I wont be blogging everyday, but I will still be doing it on a regular basis, so continue to check in. There are loads of updates for you to check out in bookshelf, and I have interviews coming up with Aussie journalists Tracey Spicer and Caroline Overington, and a great beauty post on keeping your writing hands gorgeous!
Sure, things have changed a bit, but our dreams are still the same. And as long as we keep our eyes on the prize but walk a little on the relaxation side here and there, we’ll be ok. Yes, it has been a while, but if you pick up your pens and join me, I am more than willing to go the distance to help us write the dreams weve always wanted to write about….
Hey Team Wordsmith,
Have been quite sick over the last few days, and it’s going to be a little while till I am up and at it again. Will get back to posting asap, so please be patient with me until I am all good and ready – I’d rather have some quality blog posts as opposed to ones with no wordsmith value just for the sake of regular posting…
I’ve never had a problem with big projects, or academic writing. Then again, my last stint doing an academic project was when I was 21, doing my Masters and writing a thesis that I could pay attention to because I didn’t work full-time worrying about paying a mortgage.
This time around, things are different. This thesis is significantly bigger. Where I spent that 21st year finishing the project in a year with plenty of time for editing and formatting and relaxing after, I have spent the 9 months of this year no where near finished with the primary, existing research with this one. And by primary, existing research, I mean reading and musing on literature that is already there, not the kind of research I actually have to go out and do – like field work and analysis and interviews.
My supervisor told me I need to anchor myself in my work, so I have spent the last week visualising myself as a sort of ship, docking into thesis harbour. Despite said visualisation, I am still struggling. I have books around me, my door is closed, and my curtain is snapped shut to ensure I am not even distracted by outside visuals. And despite the fact that I am completely wrapped up in Paullina Simons’ The Girl in Times Square and its seeming cross between love story and murder mystery, I have put it away, purposely trying to ensure that my focus is solely for the 16 books surrounding my desk which must be scanned for references by tomorrow.
I have 8,000 words to write by 10pm Monday night. It’s a big deadline, esepcially considering I received notice of my annual performance review in the mail. I need something concrete to show on Tuesday morning, and my concrete slab cannot be notes of ideas and preliminary arguments and research. I thought routine would solve my problem, but even that’s not working.
I love my topic and the motivation to finish is there, in the form of a bottle of Moet that boyfriend purchased for me when I got accepted into the program and which I am only allowed to open on my graduation day, when my family will start calling me Dr. and when I will still not be closer to having any remnant of a proper job.
I used to wonder why I could never finish any of the novels I started working on. Even with my utmost intent, and my clear focus and mad determination, I could never continue with the big project. A feature I am happy to dish it out in hours, a thesis, or a book, is an entirely different story.
I am curious to know how novelists with full-time jobs do it. Where do they find the time, and the energy? How do they pave way for their writing through the distraction? How do they break up their giant task into small ones that can be easily achieved as every week goes by?
I’m hoping that soon enough, I will have the answer. Until then, I’ll continue searching this ship for its anchor, and hope that uni won’t kick me out of the thesis harbour when performance review comes around. And if they do, at least I will have my abandoned and unwritten novels to keep me occupied, or at least, still possessing that undeniable need to find the anchor.
